For These Thy Gifts

By Harry Buschman

At precisely 5:30 a.m. on the cold gray morning of November 29th, 1930, Edna
Butterman rose quietly from the folding double bed in the front parlor. Her
husband turned restlessly and threw one arm over his eyes to block the early
morning light. During the day their bed was a davenport in the chilly, unoccupied room of the fifth floor tenement, but for now, with five Buttermans living together it served as a master bedroom.

Gathering the bathrobe around her thin frame, she walked to the window and
looked out at the dark deserted street. The day promised to be dark as well. She denied herself the luxury of yawning and pattered her way to the kitchen, by way of the dining room where Owen slept. He was sitting up in his cot .... writing again. "Would he ever stop writing? What kind of a trade is writing?"

The Depression had barely begun, but it had already made many differences in
the daily life of the Butterman family. Owen was sleeping on a cot in the dining room, she and Frank were in the parlor, her sister-in-law, Minnie, and her brother-in-law, Fred, were in the bedrooms across the hall.

Frank still worked three days a week at the book bindery but old man Jimson
paid him for one. "Take it or leave it, Frank. Would you rather have no day of pay at all?" Frank Butterman took it. Minnie had lost her job at the lace factory and was addressing envelopes in the afternoon. Fred, a pipe fitter, showed up willing and able at the shipyard shape-up every morning at seven. Once in a while there was something to do, but more often than not, he would spend the day at the waterfront bar.

***

Owen stretched out once more in his creaky cot and thought about his book
report for English class that afternoon, "The Social Significance of Tiny Tim." He had his classes changed to the afternoon so he could take the part-time letter carrier job from seven ‘til noon. It was only for the holidays, then he, too, would be out of work. ....Tiny Tim, hobbled and poverty stricken, a kindred spirit who blessed everyone, even that tight-assed old Scrooge.... That was the gist of his book report. How can a kid hobble around on a crutch, not have two cents to rub together, then bless the man who screws his father? He felt a flush of anger again as the Dickens story brought home the analogy between the Cratchitts and the Buttermans. He fished the report out from under the cot and read it through
again -- for the fifth time.

He heard his mother making breakfast noises in the kitchen. He better get up
while he still had a chance of getting in the bathroom. Above his head he heard the shuffle of feet on the gravel roof. He was still up there! Old Mr. Lewenthal was living in a lean-to on the roof. Edna had told him, "Leave him alone. When it gets cold he'll have to move on, don't say nothin' to your father." As he sat in the john he had to laugh to himself. "Holy Christ!" he thought, wouldn't Charles Dickens love to write a story about old man Lewenthal.

"Mornin' Ma."

Edna had gotten into the habit of sighing before she spoke, as though the effort to speak was a strain.

"Mornin' son. Sleep well?"

"Yeah, pretty good. What's that? Oatmeal?

She nodded her head and turned back to the stove. Owen knew she would start
in again. It began when his father lost his job. Things had been going so well. Pop was working overtime. His Aunt and Uncle would come over weekends and they'd go places, and he could have almost anything he asked for.

"C'mon, Ma, don't start. Okay?"

"I won't."

"You been talkin' to God again, aint'cha?"

She filled a bowl with oatmeal, set it in front of him and got the pitcher of milk out of the ice box. She smelled it cautiously before putting it on the table.

"It's good for one more day. C'mon now, say your Grace."

"For oatmeal?"

"For everything. Say it with me. 'Bless us O Lord and these Thy gifts."

"Yeah, yeah, ‘these Thy gifts’ -- some gifts!"

The others drifted in. They looked far gone, farther gone than the Cratchitts. Two brothers and a sister; hard times, helplessness and fear had brought out their strong family resemblance. One-by-one they sat down across from Edna and Owen. It looked as though the oatmeal would have a hard time making its way round the table.

Edna sighed again and said, "Owen and me said Grace."

"I'm sick of your damn Grace," Frank said. "Day after day we go on thankin'
Him. What for! What the hell for!! What’s He done for us?”

"Please Frank, not in front of Owen."

Frank had reached the end of his rope. He was no Bob Cratchitt to sit and take Scrooge's crap all day. But he was frustrated and had no way of fighting back. Somebody would grab his one day's pay for three day's work job at the drop of a hat. The bindery would be back in business one of these days, and Frank didn't want to be outside looking in.

"Look Edna, Owen's 14 years old. He knows damn well how God's takin' care of
us."

Minnie and Fred sat there looking from one to the other. They had been evicted three months ago, and their furniture was held by their landlord for back rent. It doesn't pay to take sides when you've got holes in your shoes.

One by one they finished and left the table. One by one they bundled up to face the cold November wind. Frank to the bindery, Minnie to the junk mail depot, Fred to the ship yard, and Owen to the Post Office. A passerby would have to look hard to tell one from the other. Edna watched them from the parlor window.... the house was so empty and quiet when they were gone, just the whispering of Mr. Lewenthal's feet on the roof above her head.

From the fifth floor window, the bell tower of St. Theresa's Roman Catholic
Church could be clearly seen. Another hour and the sun would turn its white
stucco wall to gold, and the copper roof of the belfry would be as green as jade. Another hour, and she too, would bundle up against the chilly November wind and go to seven o'clock mass. It was so different there.... so peaceful. She would pour out her heart to God there, tell Him her troubles one-by-one and feel their weight lifted from her shoulders one-by-one. Minnie would be back while she was gone, and when she returned, they would address 500 envelopes in a fine Spencerian hand before two o'clock in the afternoon. For this, they would each receive $4.50.

There was so much to pray for and she was only one of many. How many troubled people would be asking for things at the seven o'clock mass? "Money for the rent, food for the table, keep my husband and son in health O Lord. Have pity on Mr. Lewenthal on the roof above us. Stand between Fred and the waterfront bar. I ask for no miracles, no epiphanies -- I only ask that You listen to me."

She heard the clump of the fire door in the hall outside. It meant Mr. Lewenthal was coming down. The poor man must be frozen she thought. What will happen when winter comes? There was a soft knock at her kitchen door.

"Is that you, Mr. Lewenthal?"

"Mrs. Butterman, may I speak with you?"

Edna unlatched the three hasps that kept the world outside. It was rare to see Mr. Lewenthal in her kitchen and should anyone else see him there it would implicate the Butterman family in his concealment. He was a short man, well past his prime and he carried an enormous brown paperboard suitcase tied with clothesline. In better times, he had been an expert pants cutter with Harris work clothes. A fine reputation; an expert pants cutter can squeeze six extra pairs of pants from a bolt of denim. A profitable cushion in a competitive trade. His married daughter was a teacher and lived with her family in St. Louis. Edna knew all this from her frequent chats with Mr. Lewenthal on the roof when the weather had been milder.

"Come in, Mr. Lewenthal, you must be chilled to the bone." Edna wished he
would leave quickly for two reasons -- she really should be getting to seven
o'clock mass, and she didn't want the landlord to find him there.

"I promise not to keep you long. Mrs. Butterman. I go to my daughter in
Missouri." He bobbed his head and displayed the palms of his hands like a
timid schoolboy. "It has been very kind of you and your family to let me live
on the roof above you."

Edna shushed him, "You’ve been no trouble, no trouble at all, Mr. Lewenthal,
but we worried about you when the weather turned cold." This might have been
true for Edna, but the rest of the family didn't care if he froze to death.

Frank had said many times, "What is he, some kinda nut? He's gonna die up
there come November .... just don'tcha get yourself involved, Edna. If
somebody asks you, you don't know nothin'."

"Oh, but I had the chimney Mrs. Butterman. My lean-to was built around the
chimney. It was quite warm in the evening when the landlord sends the heat
up. But I must thank you for letting me use the toilet, and for taking my
mail, and for the delicious food."

Edna looked at the clock on the kitchen wall.... delicious food indeed, most
of it was leftovers her family would not touch. "God go with you, Mr.
Lewenthal. I hope things go well for you in Missouri."

"They may -- or they may not, who's to say. But, to the business. All trace
of me is erased from the roof. Some things were thrown off the parapet into
the areaway, others went down the dumbwaiter. What you see is all that's left
of Syd Lewenthal. But I wish to give you and your family something, Mrs.
Butterman." He fished in the side pocket of his threadbare coat and removed a
cut glass jar with a blue stopper.

"Even Jews have their limits, Mrs. Butterman. In this jar is the Promised Land. In truth, Mrs. Butterman, I know it looks like the dirty sand of Coney Island, but it is the land promised to us by God." He placed it on the kitchen table and buttoned his old winter coat.

Edna was not impressed. "Thank you, Mr. Lewenthal. I'll put it on the mantel
and it will remind us of you." Edna got her coat out of the kitchen closet. "I'm sorry if I seem ungrateful, Mr. Lewenthal, but I'm really in a hurry."

"Yes, I know.... the mass at seven. We can walk together."

Together they walked down the five flights of stairs. Mr. Lewenthal had to stop twice to breathe and to change his suitcase from one hand to the other. They stopped for breath in the small park between the church and the Catholic primary school.

"What did you mean when you said Jews have their limits, Mr. Lewenthal?"

"It slipped out, an idle jest -- nothing"

"No, tell me, please. It has something to do with that glass jar, doesn't it."

Lewenthal put his heavy bag down and looked at the steeple of St. Theresa.
"Inside the jar is the soil of Canaan. It was promised to Abraham by God himself.... yes, the same God that you praise here at St. Theresa. Some day this land shall be called Israel. It has been in my family for two hundred years. Do you wish to hear more?"

"Yes, Mr. Lewenthal."

"I have an hour before my bus. But I shall tell you in ten minutes why I, as a Jew, have reached my limit." He took a soiled handkerchief from his outer coat pocket and blew his nose loudly.

"I have no roots, Mrs. Butterman, no roots at all. How long can a man live without his roots, even a Jewish man. I believe in nothing anymore -- this soil from Canaan, the Promised Land, came from an old grandfather who brought
a boatload of it over from Jerusalem to distribute to the Ashkenazim in Poland."

"Ashkenazim?"

"The sad and rather lengthy history of the Jew is a lifetime in the telling, Mrs. Butterman. In short, this little jar of soil from the Promised Land is a poor excuse for a homeland. But it was all we had and we carried it with us from place to place to remind us of where we came from. It should mean much more to me than it does, but I can be a Gypsy no longer. Perhaps St. Louis, is my promised land."

"We will take good care of it, Mr. Lewenthal."

"May it bring you more happiness than it has brought to me, Mrs. Butterman.
Would you do me two small favors, Madam?"

Lewenthal reached in his side pocket and withdrew a dollar bill. "Would you take this dollar and light a candle for me in St. Theresa?"

"A dollar's too much, Mr. Lewenthal."

"I know the value of a dollar, Mrs. Butterman. Nothing of value can burn in a
flame."

"Very well, Mr. Lewenthal. I shall light a candle for you and pray for your
happiness .... " She glanced at the clock on the church wall. "There was something else?"

"Would you kiss me goodbye .... as you would kiss a member of your family
goodbye?"

Edna drew back a little.

"I put it badly Mrs. Butterman. it is only that I have no family here to bid
goodbye to. It is as though I was never here, you see? By such a favor I would carry with me the illusion that someone was sorry to see me go."

Edna leaned over quickly and kissed Sydney Lewenthal full on the cheek and
ran inside just as the mighty iron bell rang for seven o'clock mass. She didn't turn back to see Mr. Lewenthal walk slowly to the subway.

***

The priest bent down to kiss the altar cloth. Edna crossed herself and stood up. At the seven o'clock mass there was always an audible effort to kneel and many of the elderly could not keep up with the bobbing and weaving which is a part of the Roman Catholic Mass. They sat on the edge of their seats with their knees just touching the floor. I've done that myself sometimes, she thought, after doing the kitchen floor or cleaning under the kitchen sink. Out of the corner of her eye, Edna could see her two candles burning. One for her family and one for Mr. Lewenthal. His dollar bill had paid for both of them.

Mr. Lewenthal's candle seemed to burn brightest. His was the last one lit. Edna's family candle came first, and already it had guttered down to a low flame like all the others. If God were forced to choose one, he would surely pick Mr. Lewenthal's. But what would he do for him she wondered? How many years had passed since that promise he made in Canaan? Brown sand. What did he say? Yes, dirty Coney Island sand. A long time ago wasn't it? Thousands of years before our Savior came, a long time to wait for a promise, a long time to carry a jar of dirt.

The Mass droned on. There seemed to be no communication between the priest
and his congregation. A poor paying mass -- the seven o'clock. Get it over quick as you can and wait for the money at the High Mass at nine.

Edna didn't know where to begin, there was so much to ask for. Would He hear
them all or would it be one common cry of need? Food on the table, money for
the landlord, keep my husband and my son in safety and in health, let things
be like they used to be.... and may Mr. Lewenthal find happiness in Missouri.
Each of us thinks their wish is special, but we are sheep, our wants are the same. How I would love to receive Communion -- the Body and the Blood of Christ -- to be new-born, innocent once more. But no, Edna, not without confession -- and how can I confess when I refuse to have a child again. A child is a luxury we cannot afford.

The Holy Water was frigid, frigid as the day outside and it gave no comfort.
There was sediment at the bottom of the basin from the dirty gloves of the
parishioners of St. Theresa. Still it was holy, wasn't it? Blessed by the priest. Edna took her share and said a Hail Mary for the road home.

At the butcher she stopped for a fat-breasted hen chicken, very reasonable for this time of year, and absolutely vital for a Michigan stew. Then to the grocer -- good to get there early, just putting things out -- get your pick. Let's see, she thought, potatoes, lima beans. Corn and tomatoes she'd have to get in cans. A Michigan stew will go two days with no complaining, after that it's Friday, and who knows what Friday may bring. The money she got from Frank, Fred and Minnie barely covered the food bill. She should have given Mr. Lewenthal something to eat on the bus. He probably wouldn't get to St. Louis until late tomorrow.

She got home and Minnie wasn't there. Must have met someone on the way. She
did the breakfast dishes, made the beds and read last night's newspaper. The
prediction was for a long cold winter with greater than average snowfall. If they could just get through it perhaps things would pick up in the spring. The hollowness of her hope caused her to put the paper down and go to the parlor window again. Parting the curtains, she saw Minnie with two large boxes under each arm walking quickly towards the apartment.

"About time. Where have you been?"

"I stopped off at Bracken's, they're startin' up again next week. They're tryin' to keep their applique people together and they think maybe two, three days a week."

"That's great, Minnie. Did they say they would have work for you?"

"Yeah, I think so. They said to show up every day, and they'd let me know. It's easier than callin' people on the phone, maybe it's good you don't have a phone." Minnie unloaded the boxes on the kitchen table and set out the name lists and the envelopes. She went to the mantel to get the pens and the ink. "What's this glass jar on the mantel?"

Edna had almost forgotten it. "Oh, Mr. Lewenthal moved out today. It's a
present."

Minnie shrugged. "Gee could he spare it?"

They sat across the table from each other and began. Mr. & Mrs. Andrew
Ameling, Miss Cynthia Goldfarb, Harold Roebling, Esq. It went on hour after
hour with a break for lunch -- tea and cucumber sandwiches. When you are
concentrating on the spelling of names and writing them down in a fine Spencerian hand, it's best not to indulge in idle chatter. Each spoiled or misspelled envelope must be accounted for and deducted from the day's pay.
"Unfair? Step aside lady, the woman behind you is next."

It was four thirty. Minnie leaned back in her chair and stretched her arms wide, then rubbed her eyes.

"Moved out, huh?"

"Who?" Edna asked.

"Lewenthal"

"Yes, gone to spend the winter with his daughter. Longer maybe, I don't know.
He's got nobody here, you know? Not since his wife died."

Minnie yawned and put the cover on the boxes. "Y'know, when Jews get trouble
they get more than their share. The little jar up there," she pointed at the mantel, "what's it supposed to mean?"

"He told me it's a sample of the earth that God promised to the Jews. It's been in his family for hundreds of years."

Minnie lifted her nose an inch or two. "What's that I smell?" she asked.

"Michigan stew." Edna looked at the clock again. Owen would be home first.
Another half hour. Walking all morning with a bag of mail and then learning
what he could his first year of high school. Would he stay awake? Maybe oatmeal isn't enough in the morning, and God knows what he eats for lunch. And the writing. Would he ever stop writing? On her trips from the parlor to the bathroom in the middle of the night, she would pass the dining room where he slept and see him hunched like a shoemaker with his knees nearly up to his nose.... writing. My God. My God, what kind of a trade is writing?

They could hear his slow labored step on the stairs outside. Edna opened the
door before he knocked.

"C'mon in Owen," she looked him over carefully, "you’ve gotta be worn out."

He smiled weakly and collapsed in a kitchen chair. He kicked off his shoes and stared at them. "I put twenty-five miles on those shoes today, Ma. But I got some really grade 'A' news." He smiled and dug into his school bag. "Looka that, Ma." He carefully brushed the table before putting down his "Social Significance of Tiny Tim."

"100 ever lovin' points! Huh, Ma! Not only that, Mr. Molloy says I got talent way beyond my years. He says he never thought that Brooklyn and London had so much in common. Know what else he said?"

"Somethin' good I hope, Owen."

"Better sit down.... you too, Aunt Minnie. He says I got the makin's of a
journalist in me. He's gonna get me a place on the school paper where I can really write. You know, use a typewriter and all, go to school ball games, interview students and teachers."

Edna took a long look at Owen, sighed and turned to Minnie. "If he's happy,
I'm happy. Owen, I guess that's what you wanna do." She flexed her fingers,
still stiff from her afternoon of writing.

"You bet it is, Ma. it's what I wanna do."

"Wash up Owen, your father will be home any minute." No telling when Fred
would get in, if he didn't work today he might still be at the waterfront bar. She walked to the parlor and stared at Mr. Lewenthal's glass jar on the mantel. Something good for Owen, something good for Minnie. Was it really
something good? It sounded more like promises.

Suddenly there was the sound of singing in the hall and someone fumbling with
a key at the kitchen door. It swung open abruptly and banged against the icebox. Frank and Fred stood there unsteadily, looking like two recruits caught AWOL on a Saturday night.

"Frank Butterman! Look at you.... look at the two of you!" So much for the
magic jar of dirt, Edna thought. Christmas just around the corner, a ray of hope maybe, and these two fools come home drunk!

"Kiss me, Edna. Tell me you love me, and I'll give you good news." Frank grabbed Edna and spun her around.

Fred was carrying his gray canvas bag with the tools of his piping trade. He
dropped them with a clatter to the kitchen floor. "I'm workin' Edna.... six months easy."

Frank puffed out his chest, "See Edna, kiss Fred too. The navy sent up a ship
from.... where was it, Fred.... Newport Noose? They're gonna refit the old bucket."

Fred picked up the story. "It could be done in four months, but we can pad it
out to six, then it goes out for trials and comes back.... another couple months for retrofit." He nudged Frank, "I'll be pullin' outta here Edna, you can have that bedroom back. First four paychecks are yours."

It was hard to keep up. First Minnie, then Owen, now Fred -- rags to riches.
Well, not riches, but something better than rags. But still, it was no excuse for these scatterbrained brothers to come home tipsy.... and furthermore they'd better get themselves cleaned up for supper. The stew was ready.

Frank came out of the bathroom first. His flushed face had returned to its
normal pallor. "Edna," he cooed, "come into the parlor with me, love."

"Frank, there's no time for foolishness. Everything's ready. Sit down and eat. You take up too much room standing up."

"C'mon Edna, just for a second. There's somethin' I gotta tell you." He took
Edna's arm, took the pot holder out of her hand and gave it to Minnie. "Just
for a second, Edna."

They stood in the middle of the parlor. Frank looked around him and slowly
shook his head. "Boy! Will I be glad not to have to sleep in here no more....
what I hafta tell'ya.... get a grip, Edna.... Jimson's got a big book contract for the Philadelphia School District. Told me today. Rithmetics, Joggerfrees and spellers. It means full weeks, Edna -- full weeks. For the next three months anyways."

Edna sat down suddenly, as though all the air had been let out of her.

"Aint'cha glad, Edna?"

Edna could see the glass jar just to the right of Frank's elbow. Its bright blue stopper seemed to sparkle a bit in the light coming from the kitchen.

"Of course I'm glad, Frank. For all of us. But I'm scared too. Why I wonder
-- I was gettin' used to bein' poor I guess." She reached in the pocket of her apron for a handkerchief and blew her nose, then stood and held Frank tightly.

She finally broke away: "It's been a good day, Frank, an awful good day. You and Owen.... you don't know about Owen, do you? His English teachers gettin' him a job on the school paper. He wants to be a writer, Frank." Frank looked at her puzzled. "Yes, a writer. That's okay isn't it? It's what he wants to do." Minnie's gonna be workin' part time and Fred's got his job back. Like I said, it's been an awful good day. Oh! I didn't tell you. Mr. Lewenthal's off the roof.... gone out to his daughter's in St. Louis. He left us a present."

She broke away from Frank and crossed to the mantel. "Here, here it is."

"What's that? A bottle of dirt?"

"No, it's not dirt. I don't have the time to tell you now. Supper's ready. Maybe later. It's all come so fast, Frank. C'mon, the stew's ready." They walked into the kitchen together -- the others were already sitting.

"You do it, Owen." Edna said.

"Bless us O' Lord, and these Thy gifts which through Thy bounty we are about
to receive through Christ our Lord. Amen."

© Harry Buschman 1998

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